crookers

just sitting in the study quad, doing blogstuff... deleted my tumblog because i use it so infrequently. i use this one just as infrequently but i am hanging on to it because of emotional attachment. also i might like to post here once in a while. although basically all i get here anymore is spam comments.

anyway, nanny-life (at least in it's current incarnation) seems to be winding down. i'll hopefully be moving to germany this upcoming fall and spending an academic year there. who knows whether i'll come back (it's not likely.)

when i look at my life, i just can't believe how unbelievably lucky i am. i get paid to live in a mansion, play with awesome kids for 3 hours a day, eat free food, drive a volvo around town and basically just chillax. school is basically just a fun diversion at this point... nothing seriously academic. 3 german courses 3 days a week seems like so much playtime. i haven't gotten anything below a 97% on any test. the other class i take is basically my dream- weaving, dying fabric, stenciling, screenprinting, etc.

being single is basically my favorite thing in the world. i don't have anyone to answer to but myself. i do what i want, when i want. i hang out with my friends like it's going out of style. i don't have to feel sad or self conscious because of someone else's opinion of me. i just get to BE. and i love it.

i'm on speaking terms with the EX. things are weird when we see each other in person... but lately i've been texting him randomly and the replies are friendly. i guess i miss him sometimes, but it's mainly when my mind isn't occupied with anything else. and even then it's easy to remind myself how miserable i was, he was... and how i would never want to be in a relationship that was so devoid of passion ever again.

i still talk to the scottish boy... we chitchatted for about 2 hours on facebook yesterday. i still don't know what strange power he had over me... i was completely infatuated with him this summer. now i look at him and i'm like... errr.... whaaaat???

of course, there are other boy issues now but i am trying to let all that take a backseat... there's definitely no one worth writing about. oh and i joined a softball team (beer league). so that's happening.

in case anyone was wondering, we did recover the missing kitty.

xoxox